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Haha...I bet that got your attention, right? I read this somewhere and I thought that it sounded so "girl power-ish". Anyway, so I had to post it up on here. Now, I'll continue with my REAL diary entry. *SMILE* Honestly, for the last little while, I didn't feel like typing up a diary entry for 2 reasons: 1) My boyfriend and I had yet another bumpy problem and 2) I am the laziest person on the face of the earth. Anyway, right now I feel like there's a need to replace the old entry with a new one because I don't feel so glum anymore. Things are brightening up again and I wanted to let you all know that. I have received a few e-mails from very kind people, who cheered me up a great deal and I am extremely grateful. Even the littlest things like e-mail can help. It's amazing how effective it can be and how most of us don't realize it. Anyway, I'm pleased to say that I'm feeling much better than I was before. I'm feeling like my usual sunshiny self. Hehe...that may or may not be a good thing. *Grin* The problem with my boyfriend that arose recently (after the other one) was mainly to do with unnecessary jealousy and I'm glad to say that we've resolved that. Last night Danny called me on the phone, saying that he was sorry. I honestly understand why he felt and acted the way he did. Any normal person would do what he did. I think I would have (then again, who said I was completely normal to begin with). So, I'm just really relieved about this whole conflict coming to an end. I hate it when we argue about things like that. I wish we could always be happy (just like a fairy tale or something), but that's just wishful thinking. Life demands both happiness and sadness. To deny that both exist is not only ridiculous, but also unrealistic. Going back to my boyfriend, I was actually quite worried that he was so upset that he would break up with me, but thank goodness that wasn't the case. When we spoke last night on the phone, he didn't sound angry (like I predicted), instead, he said things to me that showed how much he cared....He even cried....I know that it was sincere. He means a lot to me. I wish that I didn't make him cry like that. I keep on wondering if this jealousy issue is all my fault, even though Danny disagrees (and has told me not to feel that way). Anyway, I still have to reflect upon all of this. I want to analyze this situation to see whether I am to blame (wholly or partially). I want to learn from this experience, so that I will never have to face this awful situation again. What I can say about all of this is that in a weird sort of way, it brought Danny and I closer together. There's a kind of bond that strengthens through hardships and I do believe that this is one of them. I'm very grateful for Danny being a part of my life and heart. Through everything we've been through, I've never forgotten that.....ever! Okay, so this week has been truly a good week, aside from the 'boyfriend situation' I discussed (in too much detail). University has been going awesome for me and what I mean by that is that I got back 2 of my essays which I wrote a while ago. I did well on them. For my social science essay, I got a B. You might not think this is good, but the average of the class was a C. I notice that university marks harder than highschool. In highschool I never got anything lower than an A on an essay, so a B was definitely a shock and somewhat of a disappointment at first. Now, I feel much better about it, considering that I'm still above the class average. For the next essay, I'm striving to achieve an A. I think I can do it if I really put my mind to it. Okay, then I got my other essay back from my Science & the Humanities class. Get this...the average of the class was around a C and I got an A+!!!! I could hardly believe it! I wrote that essay the day before it was due (a VERRRRY bad thing to do, by the way! I don't recommend it). I remember picking up my essay, going straight to the last page to see my mark and when I saw A+, I was thinking, " This cannot be MY paper!!!", but indeed it was! It was funny, because I was expecting a C or something bad on it. I was pleasantly surprised! *Smile* I'm feel so ecstatic about it all and you may think that I'm being egotistical, gloating about my marks (maybe I am), but it's because I'm so very happy! *SMILE* Yesterday after school, Nicole and I went to the mall. Nicole wanted to look at some glass frames because she needs to get glasses soon. Her perscription is really light, but she wants to get them anyway. I envy her. She really looks great in those thin rectangularish black plastic ones that look so funky. It suits her. She also looks good in gold frames, because she has a brown skintone. Anyway, so afterwards, we went to Sears and I ended up buying 3 more panties. Now I KNOW that I'm obsessed, because I have over 40 and I'm still buying more. This isn't a good thing at all. Anyway, one of them is pretty cool. It's red (very festive) and in black writing all over it, it says "Naughty & Nice", which I think is really cool. I like words on my clothing (and underwear, in this case). Last night there was a special on television about Britney Spears. Sadly, I watched it. I found it quite amusing, really, because there was one part I remember where they focused on Britney's dentist....yes, DENTIST. They had huge posters of Britney's teeth on the wall from when she was little and then after she had her braces removed. I was cracking up. I think that Britney's fans (I'm not one) would rather want to hear her sing rather than look at her teeth and hear what her dentist had to say about her smile. It was way too weird. Next thing you know, they'll have a special program with her doctor, telling us about her urine sample! EWWWWWWIE! I cannot believe I even typed that! I think it's time for the next topic, before I start to scare myself (and you)! I bought these really amazing Steve Madden boot/shoes. They cost $90. They're black, they go up to the ankle and it's got a heel like a platform (quite high). It's cool, because when I wear them, I'm taller than my father! *Smile* They are really light weight and it feels like you're walking on a cushion of air or something. I think the style name is called "Diamond" or something like that (just incase you wanted to know). I got them from Eatons. I've been overplaying songs insanely. I'm becoming obsessed with that song "In The End" by Linkin Park and "Black Black Heart" (the remix version) by David Usher. Both songs expressed my angsty, upset and depressed feelings that I was having recently (which I'm over now, but am still loving the songs). Wow, it's almost Christmas and I can hardly believe it. It seems like the department stores have started pushing the festivity in their decorations ever since Hallowe'en ended. They're always like that and it's understandable. They want to make money. That's what Christmas means to the cash register. People wouldn't be in business to lose money. Anyway, today I'll probably put up a new Christmas section on my website (*~* The Mystic Realm *~*) Check it out if you want! I've been thinking about my hair. That sounds weird the way I worded it. Right now, my roots are showing since the last time that I dyed my hair. I'm thinking about dying my hair jet black and then getting noticeable red streaks throughout. I want it to look funky and different. It's probably going to cost $100 or so. It could be my Christmas gift to myself or something. I'm still not sure. I do think that it would look good though if I did that. On the other hand, I was also thinking about whether or not I should just let my hair grow out and never dye my hair ever again. Hmm...decisions, decisions, decisions....(superficial). Okay, this entry is short, but I really need to get off of this computer and get some more schoolwork done. I'll write again when I get some more free time. Until then, take care and always remember to SPREAD THE SUNSHINE!!!!!!!! Bye for now!!!! ~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-. TRIVIAL TIDBITS ABOUT ME: RIGHT NOW ~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-. EYES: Lined with black sparkly eyeliner (top and bottom), black mascara NAILS: I've got 2 coats of this pastel holographic nailpolish on. It's very subtle. LIPS: Conditioned with chapstick HAIR: Tied up in a messy little ponytail (if it even resembles one) THINKING ABOUT: Tomorrow (I'll be seeing Danny) WISHING: People lived happily ever after SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD: "In The End" sung by Linkin Park SONG I'M LISTENING TO NOW: "Forever In Love " - sung by Sylver LAST SPOKE TO: My Dad NOTE TO SELF: There's no hurdle you can't climb if you believe in yourself 
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Friday November 9th, 2001. - 6:58 PM