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So...do you feel loved today? I certainly do...but then again, my boyfriend always makes me feel that way. *Smile* (Hi Danny)...Well...anyway...so, I know that I haven't written in this online diary since the fourth of this month (I think). Wow...has it been that long? I must be slacking off or something. (Not a good sign at all). Well....last Saturday, I went over to Danny's place and those 4 hours were definitely not enough. I wished that we had more time, but I only got off work at 5 PM and I had to eat supper before going over there at 7 PM. Anyway, his family seems really friendly. I think that his sister is really pretty, actually. Danny's room is pretty tidy, which says a lot about him. He told me before that it was messy, but it's not!!! So...when I first went over there, he showed me some of his old yearbooks from when he was in highschool. His highschool is much bigger than mine.....so his yearbook was HUGE. Mine's about half the size of his. So...his bed was really squeaky. he actually told me about this before, but I didn't really believe it. Well...when I went to lie down on his bed, it was like, "sqqqqqqquuuueeeeeeaaaaaaakkkkkkkk"...haha...and I was like, " Your bed really IS squeaky!"...haha.....Anyway....so after talking for a bit and looking around his room, we went downstairs to his computer room. We watched "American Beauty". After the movie, we sorta cuddled (I guess you can call it that)...mmm...I love his hugs! *Smile* So.....warm...*Smile* There's more to that evening, but I'm going to keep a zipped lip about it.....I don't want to blabber what happened...especially not online. Let's just put it this way: Danny is yummy. Danny's the boyfriend that I've always wanted. He treats me with love and respect. He's intelligent and he has a witty sense of humour. He usually calls me every night and we talk well past midnight. I love all our conversations...They seem to bring us closer together. He's a very intriguing character. So, this evening...at 7 PM, he and I are going to be going out to have a sundae for Valentine's Day. We'll also exchange gifts. I'm feeling a little under the weather today (congested nose, cold hands, stuffy-feeling)....*aaachhoooo*......Well...just in time for Valentine's Day, eh? Haha....oh well.....right now I feel pretty crappy......I'm going to take a ton of vitamin C's....so hopefully that will do the trick. I can't wait to see Danny again...He always makes me feel better, even when I'm having a terrible day. He knows just how I want to be treated. *Smile* He's wonderful. He is truly wonderful......*sigh*...... *Smile* I really am in love.... Well...last night, an old friend of mine called me when I came home from work. I was surprised, I guess....Anyway...I think that she has more or less remained the same kind of person she was a year ago....I've changed a lot since then though......Anyway.....she called to find out if I'd be at school tomorrow (duh...yes)....because she wanted to give me a letter today. (I still haven't read it yet, but once I get off of the computer, I will)....Anyway.......so....during our little phone conversation, she started gushing about this guy who she met online and how she was 'falling for him'. Hmm...I don't know how to put it, but......I don't think that you can truly fall in love with someone online. It may be a really strong LIKE, but not love. Love is WAAAAAAAAAAY deeper and it only starts when you see the person on a face-to-face basis. People in such "online relationships" are probably scoffing at what I just said, but it is so true. I was in a long-distance online relationship before and I thought the same way....I was like, "WOW....I love this guy."........but now, with Danny...(him living close to me, talking on the phone every night and getting to see him in person on a regular basis) is SOOOOO much better. This is the REAL THING. Those internet things (in my opinion), are not the real thing. They are just illusions. The person may SAY that he/she cares about you, but who knows if it's the truth or not? I strongly feel that actions speak far louder than words. When you have a person hugging you and telling you how wonderful you are, it's for real. When you're on ICQ or some other instant messaging program, they could type all the flowery words, but you don't know if they really mean it. There are little things, which, when added up, create a larger spectrum of love. Some of these things are: the tone of voice, hugging, kissing, holding hands, tickling......etc. All these things could be TYPED on the keyboard, but c'mon....it's NOT THE SAME!!!! I'm not bashing people who are in this situation of "online love".....but I'm just speaking from my own experience. It's not for me. I've been there. I thought the same things you did, probably. For me, distance doesn't work. I am a personal touchy-feely kind of person. (Just ask Danny...hehe....)....I need to see someone in the flesh....physically.....and not just see their screen-names pop up on my computer. When the person is there physically, it's way more emotional and it touches your heart. So...when my friend told me about her online crush, I didn't know what to say. I don't want to discourage her...but....encouraging her may lead to future disappointments. Oh well.....we're not really close anymore, so she probably isn't going to come to me for advice. Ahhhh yes........VALENTINE'S DAY.....Isn't it lovely? I think that I'm getting better just THINKING about it. Really, Valentine's Day is a wonderful reminder that you should appreciate people right now while you can. They might not always be there for you. Oh....something just popped into my head. Last night when Danny and I were talking on the phone, exactly at midnight (on his clock), Danny wished me a Happy Valentine's Day......Wasn't that sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeet? I think so! *Smile* He really is the sweetest guy. He's also such a gentleman, even though at times, he doesn't want to admit it. Hehe....I have a feeling that our relationship is going to be long-term....It's going to last.....I can feel it. I've never felt this serious about anyone before.....It's so different with Danny.... ~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-. ME: RIGHT NOW -> Trivial little tidbits ~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-.~.*-. EYES: Lined with black eyeliner. Black mascara NAILS: Sparkly holographic nailpolish, but it's chipping. I'm going to repaint it this red sparkly nailpolish before I go out tonight (hopefully) LIPS: Au naturel...I seemed to have misplaced my favourite lip gloss!!!!!! *sniff sniff* :o( HAIR: Curly (as usual).....and down..... THINKING ABOUT: How special I am to have Danny as my Valentine this year. (I found my ideal...how rare is that?) WISHING: I did better in my physics class SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD: "Thank You" - sung by Dido SONG I'M LISTENING TO NOW: "I Kiss Your Lips" - sung by Tokyo Ghetto Pussy 
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Wednesday February 14th, 2001. - 3:15 PM